I love being a mom, I love my kids more than life itself. I love watching them play and learn new things.
I love listening to them talk and tell me stories. I would not change a thing about them.
But.. I didn't take the time when I was younger, to figure out who I was. I just got married, and had some kids early on so I could get on with this life I thought I was supposed to live.
I've gone through a few identity crises in my short life. I still don't know exactly who I am, but I like to imagine myself doing things I think I would love.
It kind of helps me figure out what I want from this life and how I can work toward something similar even with a family.
If I were single...
I imagine, if I was single, I'd be broke. I would work at crappy jobs just to make a little money to do the things I want to do.
I would try moving out of state or travel the world by finding jobs in different areas and saving up to buy a plane ticket to the next place. All the while learning about different cultures and maybe learning some new languages. Making new friends along the way.
Id work on making something of myself. Whether that be making it big with my blog or starting my own business somehow.
I would work on my photography skills and become a pro nature photographer. Id just takes pictures of all the places I travel, and maybe I could make some money doing that.
I would try to get a grant to go back to school and get a degree in psychology. Use that to help others. Maybe become a therapist.
I love the idea of this person that I want to be. I know it's not practical, and it isn't a safe lifestyle. I know it's not going to happen. I have a husband that would hate living a risky life like this, and two beautiful kids that need stability in life. Although this is something id love, I can at least try to use these ideas to make my life a little more like how I want to live.
Try to travel more, work on my blog or my photography a little more professionally. Maybe even come up with a great business idea.
I believe writing down these things that you truly want to do, help you discover who you truly are. It will help you find things that would make you happy. And maybe even motivate you to try to get this life that your soul desires.
What do you desire from life?