Being a parent is such a great thing. Being able to watch these beautiful kids grow up and watching them learn new things.
There is also very hard things about being a parent. You have this responsibility to these kids to teach them how to be the very best person they can be. How can you create a great person if you aren't always the best?
On top of being a mother and a wife, I also am a sufferer of Depression and Anxiety. My anxiety causes me to have a lot of anger issues. I'm not violent but anxiety makes me yell and say things that I regret.
Because of these anger issues, I end up taking my anger out on my family. They are the only ones around all day every day so they have to deal with the worst of me.
Before I was put on anxiety meds, I would have these huge anger fits and just get so irate with my son. I would get set off when he would try coming out of his room at bedtime, or if he was being naughty. I would feel so guilty afterward. I hated how I would act and how I was treating my son.
My medication has helped some, but not to the extent I had hoped.
After many days of guilt and hating myself, I started working on apologizing for what I was doing wrong.
It's taken so much work to get to where I'm at but it makes all the difference in the world when I can admit I am doing something wrong and that my kids need an apology.
When apologizing, I explain how I'm feeling and why I got so mad or started to yell. I believe it helps my young children understand my side of things, and it sets an example for them to learn how apologizing is important when you do something wrong.
I do have a bad habit of not apologizing to my husband... but I'm always right in our arguments so I don't see a need to apologize.
Do you apologize to your kids?